Who Dares to Touch My Abandoned Empress – Chapter 19

Chapter 19

Improper Love


After he leaves Ci Ning Palace, Bai Yu Chen did not immediately release Xia Hou Shang Yue from the dungeon.  Instead, he walks on the path slowly, his mind reeling from what the empress dowager just said.  If he didn’t marry Xia Hou Shang Yue, he will still have a political marriage with his minister’s daughter.


That’s what being an emperor means.  An emperor’s marriage is never based on love, it has always been a political transaction.   Maybe, what the grand empress dowager said was true.  Maybe, if he treats Xia Hou Shang Yue better they can get a different outcome.


With that in his mind, Bai Yu Chen’s heart gradually turns lighter.  But upon remembering the scene of Xia Hou Shang Yue chatting happily with Bai Yu Xuan, an indescribable feeling of anger creeps up in his chest.


Not long later, Bai Yu Chen reaches Xun Ran Pavillion where Bai Chu Xun lives at.  She only ate a piece of sour plum cake.  After she woke up, she was sent here by her maids.


“Where is the princess?”


“Answering the emperor, princess is in her chamber.”  After answering him, the maid retreats.


Bai Yu Chen sighs heavily.  After appointing the empress and taking in concubines, he was too busy with the country matters that he no longer has time to visit Xun Ran Pavillion.  He wonders how Bai Chu Xun, that brat is doing.


“Xun Er……”


Inside the chamber, only a candle is lighting dimly.  Bai Yu Chen frowns as he calls for her.  After a while, nobody answers him.  The maid clearly said she was in her chamber, why is it empty?


“Xun Er…” Bai Yu Chen calls again.  When no answer comes, he turns around to leave but was stopped when a pair of hands circles his waist.


“Older brother Chen, now that you have the empress and Noble Consort Yu, you forgot about Xun Er!”  Bai Chu Xun glues herself to Bai Yu Chen’s back as she whispers, grievance painting her palm-sized face.  She closes her eyes as she breathes in his familiar scent, finally feeling those warm feelings again.


Bai Yu Chen did not move, he lets Bai Chu Xun hugs him like that because she can give him mother-like warmth.  The two people already went past the final line of defense one year ago.


It has been kept a secret all these while.  Not a single soul in the palace knows.  Not even his trusted Eunuch Hai.  Nobody knows that an inappropriate affection has transpired between the two royal siblings.


After a long time, Bai Yu Chen finally put away Bai Chu Xun’s arms.  He turns around to face her and fix her slightly unkempt hair.


“Xun Er, are you okay?” Upon hearing that, Bai Chu Xun suddenly cries.  It’s been a while since he last treated her like this.  These past two months, Bai Yu Chen had been aloof to her.  He can be gentle like water at one time, but suddenly forgets her existence at another.


During that period of time, Bai Chu Xun does not know how much tears she had cried.  Just as she thought Bai Yu Chen is going to end them and accept Xia Hou Shang Yue as her sister in law, he suddenly comes to Xun Ran Pavillion and calls for her name so gently.  He cares for her so much.


Bai Chu Xun once again falls for his tenderness.  Despite knowing that this is a kind of love the people will never tolerate, she still stubbornly step past the line.


“Silly girl!  Aren’t zhen here?  Stop crying, you will no longer look good if you cry!” Bai Yu Chen gently wipe her tears for her, his face carrying an indulging expression.  At times, he too does not know why he has such a relationship with his own sister, but a part of him acknowledge that his sister carries a shadow of the then Consort Li.


“Older brother Chen, did you….. did you forgot about Xun Er?  You did not come to see Xun Er for such a long time!”  Bai Chu Xun weepingly says as she buries her head in his chest.  After a while, the worry in her heart gradually disappears.  As long as her imperial brother still wants her, she is willing to be unwed for the rest of her life!


Zhen was too busy lately.  Right, you too were poisoned.  How do you feel?  Are you uncomfortable?”


Bai Yu Chen look at Bai Chu Xun’s faint red face, suddenly reminded of Xia Hou Shang Yue’s peach blossom-like cheeks on their wedding night.  He shakes his head, throwing away those thoughts before he looks down at Bai Chu Xun with a gentle smile.  The concern in his eyes are real.  Bai Chu Xun lowers her head and laughs.


“I got better after drinking the physician’s medicine.  Older brother Chen, was it really imperial sister-in-law?”  Bai Chu Xun looks up as she carefully asks.  Worry and uneasiness flashes in her eyes, one that did not escape Bai Yu Chen’s attention.


His heart sinks.  Don’t tell him…….


“Do you think it was her, Xun Er?”  As Bai Yu Chen sits on a chair, his face carries a usual smile.  Bai Chu Xun freezes before she awkwardly laughs.


“I don’t know.  But You Xiang can only be found in Mu Kingdom……”


“Xun Er, do you really not know?   Do you think zhen don’t know anything!” The smile on Bai Yu Chen’s face suddenly fades.  He grabs her by the wrist and make sure she cannot look away from his eyes.  Bai Chu Xun’s face reddens as tears pool in her eyes.


“Older brother Chen, you’re hurting my wrist!”  The moment he release her hands, Bai Chu Xun looks away, holding her reddening wrist while looking down.


“Xun Er, if zhen ever finds out it was really you who puts the poison, don’t blame zhen for not remembering the affection between us!”


Bai Yu Chen’s thunder like voice echoes in Bai Chu Xun’s ears.  She looks up at him in disbelief, her eyes full of shock and hurt.


He actually believes she was the one who puts the poison!  Bai Chu Xun laughs, her face full of tears.


“Older brother Chen, I did not put the poison!  You must not misunderstand me!”


Bai Yu Chen laughs coldly and tilts her chin.  The two people’s faces are almost glued together.  Bai Chu Xun has no idea what he intends to do, she can only look at him uncertainly.


“Misunderstand you?  Xun Er, don’t think zhen does not know your doings three months ago.  If zhen hadn’t wanted to look for an excuse to get rid of Ye Family, zhen wouldn’t have closed my eyes and let you off!  But zhen never thought you will repeat your doings!”


“I didn’t.  I didn’t…..  Older brother Chen!  I didn’t put the poison!”  Bai Chu Xun break free from Bai Yu Chen’s grasp and retreats, but accidentally trips on a chair and fall.  Her face is full of tears.  She already regretted what she did back then.  This time, it really isn’t her!  She wouldn’t dare to harm her grandmother twice!


“Xun Er, zhen came today to warn you not to repeat your antics.  If this happens again, zhen will marry you off!  From today onward, zhen don’t want to see you anymore!”


Translator’s Note: 

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Things went from 0-100 so fast in this chapter!  I really had no idea!  I thought it was just a brother complex or something but like…  One thing I truly don’t understand is why…. WHY… WHY is everybody in love with that guy!  He is a complete jerk to each and every single one of them!  Like why!

So like, do you guys still want me to translate this?  As long as there are readers, even just one, I will still translate this, don’t worry.  

And this one is actually really important, has any of you ever created a site in wordpress.org here?  I’ve been planning to, but it’s so complex TT I need some guidance!


  1. Thanks for the chapter!!! I’ve been following this story (and all the stories from this site (≧∇≦)b) since the start, Please don’t drop…. m(_ _;)m (。>﹏ω<)


      • And I just realised, he kinda knew that she didnt poison his grandmother, yet he whipped her and her assistants. Imagine what kind of man he is, to whip a person he knows is innocent, just because his ego is hurting as she spoke smilingly to his brother. while he is having incestuous relations with his own sister. lord almighty, i hope the author thought of some good plan to make him suffer

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  2. Thank u for a chapter ^^ pretty please don’t stop translate this novel ^.~ I don’t get it either that guy is… don’t even have words for what kind of inhuman sinister he is >_< I think they all fall for his handsome face or status (young, handsome, rich, standing above all have an absolute power) some can't resist this temptation… i hope the heroine at least make him suffer as much as he made her or even more it would be the best *evil laugh*


  3. I agree with you, TL-san! I can’t believe this human trash is the male lead!
    Except, I want to read the rest! It’s not that I’m an M. I just want to see him in love with the mc and suffer from her rejection! I have to see her revenge! (it sounded like that will happen from the plot description)

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  4. well this story is making me suffer a lot, but i really want to see how our MC gets her revenge. and i sort of suspected the sister had something to do with this, but i didn’t expect she was in love with him omg….

    I don’t think it was her this time tho…..maybe it was the other consort ? otherwise idk….

    thank you for your hard work!! ^.^

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  5. no no, don’t stop translating this! i need to know what’s going to happen to our poor mc.

    and omg incest orz plis don’t let our mc end with this guy, plis no ;-;


  6. ……speechless. Can’t believe they actually did it, I thought it was just siblings’ jealousy. She better not fall for him first and become a lovesick puppy. Can’t the author change the male lead? Sighs.
    Thx for the chapter!

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  7. dear translator, Is that guy really the main character? The king? not bai yu xuan?
    Oh my gosh…I’m sorry, I want to support you but I’m gonna drop this. That guy is beyond salvation.

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  8. Honestly, if I was translating I would drop it. Not even sure if I’m going to keep reading. This guy has an ugly heart, disgusting habits, and no redeemable qualities. I feel bad for the FL that is stuck with him. I heard it eventually has some sort of happy ending but I’m not masochistic enough to think that anything other than permanent amnesia and personality reconstruction for the ML would save this story.

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  9. For such an emperor to become like this, I’m rather curious about his past on how he became like that. Of course I still want him to suffer under the empress’ hands but I still want to know how his environment made him into such a person.

    For that reason and to see how the empress becomes strong during all the sufferings, I would still continue to follow this story (=ↀωↀ=)✧

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  10. Thanks for the update!!! ❤️❤️❤️
    Please don’t stop translating.😭 I still want to see the hardships the empress will have to go through and how she will over come them.
    Omg! I totally agree with you. I don’t know why anyone would love the emperor. So far I don’t see anything good about him. Most likely because of his status that is why those girls want him.


  11. Do continue coz want to know who she ended up with. Hopefully another male mc will steal her away to happiness. Leave this miserable emperor. Thanks


  12. I’d like for you to continue, but if you choose not to, would you please put up a short summary of the rest, so that we aren’t left hanging? Even something like ” King stays a douche, sister gets executed by bunny torture in chapter 47,and MC falls in love with king for inexplicable reasons, insert ragequit here” would be better than nothing.

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    • I haven’t read the story too. LOL, I read as I translate so I only know pretty much the things you guys knew. I’m not going to drop this for now though, because there are still a lot of readers haha. Thank you for commenting!


      • Glad you aren’t dropping! Thanks for translating. I can get by with MTL, but it’s always up to luck if it’s understandable or dictionary vomit. I appreciate you!


  13. I totally did a double take when I read this- took me half a day to formulate a coherent response and wrap my brain around this new development (I’ve skimmed over some of the chinese raws using google translate cause I’m horrible at reading chinese). I knew BYC had a XX relationship with the mentioned lady but since google translate referred to her as the “white lady” it didn’t click in my head until just this moment who this “white lady” was (I thought she was just one of the concubines!!!!! T_T)
    Thanks for the chapter LOL

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  14. When I read this…. every time that emperor appear, I want to kick him into the toilet bowl and flush him off to demon and beast world, where his arrogance and ego cannot help him to survive. Please though on second thought, don’t make him a king there.. Do I sounded like Kyo Kara Mouh… thank you for the chapter


  15. Errrrrrrr I really hate the Emperor…Incest…really? So disappointed with him…Ewwwwww Is there no other female there in his kingdom that he will do her own sister? Wish the MC would end up with the Emperor’s brother instead…but as you said she will still end up with her…I just hope he will suffer more before the MC will forgive him…Please don’t drop this novel! I am really looking forward to each chapter you translate…Thanks for this chapter! 🙂


      • The sister, ick, and apparently because she somehow reminds him of his mom. So many levels of wrong. I see only three options for the future of this story: 1) There is a whole [unknown to me] world of Chinese storytelling which embraces these particular taboos as well as really nasty tortures of the innocent in their romance, and so Bai Yu Chen will eventually find he loves her and persuade her to love him; 2) This story will take a turn for the worse for the present emperor, possibly paving the way for his obviously less disgusting brother, or at least freeing the Empress of him [maybe a coup]; 3) The rest of the world finds out what kind of major bad stuff is going down with the Emperor, and his ministers team up with either their own citizenry, or else Mu country to take him down, and to heck with the Bai family’s anything.
        It’s so… blurgh, it makes me want to blurgh. And yet, I now desire the answer to the poisoning question, and so I must read the updates and hope that Yu Chen gets what’s coming to him.
        Thank you for the chapters.


      • back then … it is not a taboo actually. the Egyptian do it why wouldn’t China since they are one of the oldest civilizations lived til today and the two have some subtle influences with each other.


  16. oh dear translator,
    Please do not drop this . Please continue translating this. I wish hope and pray that ill still be alive to see this story completed huhuhu translator mercy . Thank you for translating this novel.
    A Reader you will never lose.


  17. OMG… He’s beyond disgusting… to even touch his own LITTLE sister?!?! Nasty!
    I’m pretty conflicted. He is so beyond saving that I want to stop reading, but I feel for the female MC so much. I’ll stick around for as along as you want to translate just to see what happens to the female MC. I don’t know how she falls in love with him other than some sort of stockholm syndrome/weird crap like that.
    Thank you for translating either way!


  18. Wow! Haven’t been this repulsed by a male lead since Yu Ao Tian in ‘A Naive Short-Tempered Girl. Sadistic, uber-siscon BYC slept with his sister because she reminds him of his mother?! Creep. Did BYC cause his mom to die? He knew his sister lied but he stabbed Consort Yu anyway? Total asshat. I may have to read this on my phone in the darkest depths of my closet to hide my shame. Please keep translating so that we have a target for our angst and so I can die laughing at the comments. I can ride this one until Sheng Yue gets a lobotomy and accepts him in her heart. I’m looking for payback, so hoping that NU synopsis is right and she leaves him in the cold forever.


  19. This got fcked up on some many levels. WHAT THE FCK DOES HE MEAN HE IS HAVING SEX WITH SISTER. Whats even more fcked up is he is having sex with her cuz she reminds him of his mom😑 Thats really messed up. I thought he would change and become different and people would forgive him but after this is absolutely 0% NO CHANCE people will forgive him no chance nope impossible. He is disgusting and i hope he suffers horribly. How can people like such a horrible lame excuse of a human being. And plz plz dont drop this even tho it’s hurting my heart i still want to see him suffer and tTHANK YOU SO SO MUCH for translating this.


  20. What ta heck just happened? I did not stay up till 3am for this lol.. continue pleaseee. Things are starting to get more interesting.
    Btw, are you going to translate ‘Beloved Enpress’ here too? May i know from which chapter?


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